unfaded memoirs..

am sitting on the favrioute part of my terrace...the part which is obstructed from prying eyes of the jobless neighbours...the part which is attached to the small orchard behind the house..and the part which is DARK..where the neighrhood light fails to make its way.its just me..the darkness..and the silence all around .The two euclayptus tree..my mates.. hang over the wall...only their black sillhoutes visible againstthe red sky..!The wind..the cold ..steady breeze continuously hit me..!instinctivly i remove the hairband and let my hair loose.. TO let the wind play though it..to toss it around...!its kind of mutual..i like the wind going through my hair.givving it the much needed breathe..and putting up that little rebellion together!invigorated further i plug in my earphones...and start playing james blunt...! and that does it...am carried away..away in the most beautiful world ever created..the world which is just mine..the one created by me...just for me!!i lean back against the wall..look up..stare at the sky..stare at the stars..stare away into oblivion..and wonder in awe at the inexplicable existance of it all..the universe..!after several minutes of this silence tryst betwixt me and the sky above..i close my eyes with blunt softly cooing about his girl and unachieved love story..into my ears.;slowly i drift to where i belonged or more "want to belong even yet";i see him giving that loving gaze as he always used to give me..that special look..that was jeaolusly "mine"..only mine.!one by one all those faded memories with him...like some motion picture jump alive and start playing infront of my eyes..!my heart goes hysterical..starts beating as if theres no tomorrow..!the more i try to dwell into it harder ,expecting to fall back into the time..the more it fades away..until the wind turned into a gust and slappd me hard..pulling me out of the trance...a trance that i would die for to get into again..the trance that can nothing omniscent could ever replace...!! back into reality which wasnt anymore as transcedental as before...;the wind wasnt anything near to a "breeze"..it was picking up..making way for a storm.!the sky which had been so omniscent few minutes ago suddenly seemed so hostileb!Blunt sounded irate..and the trees above,my mates, looked sad and mournful..! As of me...am dazed..angry...and irked..! that unexplained hollow pain in the gut made it way again..as it does everytime since we broke up!am scared lonely and desolate!!and the pain is gettin on my nerves!holding tight...i curl up into a ball as small as possible..shunning myself from the world around.."my world".!
after this initial minutes of isolation passed..the strange pain ceased..i could now think sanely..yea..i am sane again.!few quick deep inhales..and am near to okay..! i look up..look around.close my eyes for a brief moment!a thought crosses me and i smile to myself..!!happy and content.

"maybe it was destined for just a short period of time but it nonetheless was the most beautiful thing ever "

mom...moral...and monster(well literally.)

alright.its 1:25 am..and the fact is that am scared... petrified to the extent that am frozen at my place..on my bedtop at the farthest end.My throat is parched and its screaming at my brains(probably) to send signals to my muscles nerves to move their asses(i guess they dont have one...i wasnt a very good science student u see) and get me moving to the kitchen to drink some water...but my brain aint that intelligent ...either its sending the wrong signals.or either my muscles and body parts are stubborn enough to not move..going to kitchen would mean going through the dark hallway and den the dark kitchen...and am scared already..what if i confront some translucent lady in white staring at me in the hallway or some headless malignent spirit standing outside the kitchen window..oh crap writing this isnt helping either ..its scaring the shit out of me even more,,..!!
what was the noise outside my bedroom just now...!is their somebody out there...or am i really imagining it!!and what about the strange shadow at the window...!!oh crap oh crap oh crap!!o_0
all this horror talks since the past two days..the movies and the all those stupid research yesterday and today has gone overboard i guess...!the queen of spook is spooked up herself!!(shit i heard some noise again!!)its 1:29 at night...am all alone in my room..and am hearing things...its not good at all..not at all...!i need to calm down..(takes a deep breath)...ah!lord hanuman's chalisa..yeah!thats what am gonna read out..my mom says it keeps away all spirits and evils....if smthing evil comes near me i wil probably read it aloud and maybe some magical power wil escape me and strike the evil thing *swoosh* and will turn it into ashes..suddenly filling the room ith bright bright light..*tinkles twinkles*...okay..enough of my idiotic figments of imaginations..(thats what watching hindi horror shows like aahat and sshh koi hai does to you..cleans away all ur logics and intelligenc like cleenex XD) ..okay here i go ..(starts chanting hanuan chalisa) *suddenly some useless gali ke kutte(street dogs)find my the place outside my window the best place to start a brawl (...probaby over some lolita type bitch :P)* (scream)*mommieeeee*(shoots under my blankie crying mom mom only to emerge 10 mins later and continue with this)...am all good now...with the feeling like another van helsing..yeah!
moral of the story-
1.it doesnt matter how older you grow...at the time of trouble.ur mom is what you scream for..


2-the above kind of people are...wel...simply.....immatured morons..



3- i am a moron.*sigh*


peace.

and the pichas i took...!

i was just wondering that its high time i should post something intresting before you really start contemplating over the fact that my sole intention of starting this blog was to write shit.



thats not true though...


....or maybe it is....:P

anyway so today i will be posting some of my own clicks...thought it would be intersting to certain people..i didnt really know where to start from as i have a huge collection..so i zeroed in on the pic that i won a consolation for in my college photo exhibition.

when love is nothing more than the raindrops on my window..

umm..this is from first attempt at fashion photogarphy.
the shooting location-my home
model-my friend..tanvi.
camera used-canon sx120 is (i have an a digi cam for now will be gtting an dslr very soon)
theres a bit of editing done here through photoshop(and it is horrible i know)

2.the pic below is from the same photoshoot.

the irony of its all..the innocent butterfly or the uncanny looks..

same location,same camera used and same model...photoshop air-bruhed.
th^_^
p.s- i love the looks tanvi gives for any of the pichas...shez my muse!


3.again from the very same shoot

me,,my solitude..and just the sky to share...

location-my terrace
model-anjali..! (mu another muse!)
camera-the same
i just changed the background here..!it gives it a more solitaire look..the blue effcect is what completes it!


well this much for today...will be posting a bevy of new ones very soon!!
xoxo ^_^

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when wretchedness befalls with all its glory..

its 4:15 in the morning..m still staring at the screen..!!i have this misty thing coming infrnt of my eyes...its a zoom in zoom out kind off situation..!!m tired..m sleep-deprived..my head is hurting..and m irate!!very very!! i just came to catch a glimpse of the pretty mirror that sits in my room against my..front wall(facing me all the times as if stalking me *gets the creeps*)oh yea and what i saw in d mirror ws some forlorn looking wretched....with ruffled clothes...messy hair...huge ugly dark circlular things under her eyes...shrivelled nose and cheeks!! scared that i already was...this triggerd me off!! i screamed and sudddnely i realized she screamed to..just at the same time ...!!!surprised..scared and that weird of a feeling named "curosity"egging me on frm insides...i put up my hand..and what the fuck..she puts hers up too..!!i tilt my head she tilts herss too!!!! and afr 5 mins of unrestrained foolery..it dawns upon me "oh that wretched is u niharika"!!!here comes enligthnment..a tryst with the truth;and there there goes my alter-ego..my hypertension..frustration agitation or whatever..*swoosh*into the air!!!! the only thing crippling me alll over- GOSH!!!!DO I LUK SO UTTERLY HORRIBLE!!!
that prompts me to make a note right away -
- take care of my health
-get rid off those horrid eye circles.wil probbly go to the market and get a gud eye gel..
-get a nice or maybe the best(if i have enough bucks) moisterizer.
-drink tons of water from now on.-
-get my beauty sleep..no matter what
-what a shit. forget all of the crap written above.and get back to reading the history of photography.thats what gonna come in the exam.
(crumples up the note into ball and aimes at the mirror,..whic fells two feet before.loser evrytime.all the time
*sigh* and life could'nt be better)-_-

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okay..nw here i go...!my first blog..!!it ws nva planned..not decided nuthin..jst came acroos sum random ones...got inspired!signed up on bloggers..nw here i am!!! its a wee bit confusing...bt am soon gonna catch up for sure..!its gonna be fun it seems ^_^
n the best part is...i hav my end sem tomorrow..ou!bt as its clearly visibl..am in no mood to study..haha!!c'mon!!all u students out there..u r sure to relate with me over here..its the most common syndrome!we tend to lose all the enthusiasim...get all the works and a craving for more myspacing and facebooking during the exam time!!its always like-"just few more minutes and am off to study"though how those few minutes go on to become one whole day we nver come to understand..!!and then all cramming up starts at 4:00 am of the exam day!then comes the panicking period..(before getting ready for college)..which is followed by the"nervous hour"(wen v reach college and see people..even our bestest friend bleating out the answers) and then finally the dooms hour(in the examination hall..with the question paper in the hand andnothing at all in the balls!)afr 3 hours of pretence of writing..hard labour of trying to cheat..and the glory of giving up..comes the hour of nirvana..when we feel.."yea!the monster is finally over..and the cycle repeats itself!!
rofl! this is the story of students and exams!!!atleast its mine if nothin else!!
it was fun newy! cya soon!:)
^_^